They make you think you deserve it.
They make you think they so it because they love you.
They make you think you are worth nothing else.
They scar you until you can’t see past the scars and imperfections.
They scar you until every hit, slap, insult and every violation of your body is imprinted into your mind.
They scar you until you see them in your bed every night.
They screw up all of your future relationships.
They screw up any shred of dignity you ever had.
They screw up your ability to look in the mirror and see something worth being.
The worst thing about abusers is that long after the cuts, bruises and miscarriages heal is that they still live in your brain. They see your most intimate thoughts and twist them into something you could have never believed before.
I am scared you will never leave my mind.
I am scared you will never leave my bed at night.
I am scared that I will always be afraid the boy doesn’t love me because he would never lay a finger on me.
I am scared that I will always equate love with abuse.